Here’s the thing: I’m scared to write this post.
No, that’s not it, I want to write this post, but I’m scared of getting started.
I am not sure about what have gotten into me lately, but I’ve been so worried, so nervous…so scared.
Maybe it’s due to not having heard back from a dream job. Maybe.
I should be starting a couple more applications but I’m doubting myself and am scared of rejection. Hesitation is blocking me from sprinting away.
It kills me to know that I don’t even have the courage to get started.
Oh, another thing. I am trying to work out a complicated bureaucracy bullshit so that I can graduate this semester as planned. It’s my fault. I should have taken this one class seriously but didn’t. It’s my fault.
The professor said he would help and get back to me in a day or two but it’s been a week…
I don’t know what to do. There’s nothing I could do.